It was almost a month that I hadn’t gone through meditation. “Oh! God, oh! My teacher, please ……do forgive me …I ‘m out of my track. Please …….. Please! Show me the right path……..path to get success, to achieve victory and pride”. With these things in my mind, I stayed for meditation suddenly; I got a message from god……
He said “give me your red orchid”.
I asked “As red rose or???”
He replied “yes“.
I again asked “Will you return it or keep it as red rose?”
I got no answer then… there was a deep silence… a silence covering completely too whole horizon….. I was in dilemma. A voice was coming form dawn asking “Is love necessary for an angel?”
I answered “Everybody need love to live no matter he is a human being or an angel.”
A voice said “You don’t have any right to love. You are here for your duty. You must complete your duty.”
I immediately asked “if there is a duty there must be a right too…..isn’t there?”
The voice answered “yes, of course…. You have rights…. right to fulfill others wishes….right to make others smile, right to create friendship, peace and love.”
I repeat “To create love?”
And the voice replied “yes… to create love. But … keep on your mind not to fall in love.”
I was dumped as my mind blocked out….. I ….then …. Restored my power and asked “When would I be released from my duties?”
He answered “very soon. As soon as you’ll release from this world.”
I was shocked…. He said …. I don’t have much time left …. I don’t have much time now to live in this beautiful world….. if … if .. I love somebody…. Then she’d be …. Sad… and it’d be as if I’m creating sorrowful life to her. I’ll break her heart and… I’ll make her heart cry….. Which I don’t want to … but …. My love????? Well, I can’t spoil any one’s life in fact I can’t spoil her life and I can’t give her false hopes that I couldn’t fulfill… then god responded me saying “ I know your feeling …. But, I can’t do anything for you. These are the rules of nature!
With drops of tears on my eyes I speak for myself “Rules … what’s the need of these rules if it makes everyone sad…. What, what is the need of it if it is nearly impossible to accept…but …. This is the rule.”
With the hope of enthusiasm I undergo my thinking again feeling that I can’t fall in love… but … I can give her every happiness of life, I can show her the right path of victory and success, I can give her love…. Love for which she feels secure and … but … I can’t get love from her …. I’m not so much lucky… A silence was appeared in my room. A small threshold echo of slogan is then heard, a slogan I along with my friends had taken before entering this world…. I am always committed to fulfill the promises we did… in which my mind is always with me but not my heart… I concluded that I’m with great deal of that echo.
2 years ago